This started so innocently. My son had unearthed a deck of tarot cards I bought when I was probably ten. I was very fascinated and drawn to occult things as a kid. They have Greek style artwork I think, so not a traditional deck, but the artwork is decent.

Somehow (and this is truly curious) they stayed with me. Through a move out of my childhood house, through college (did I even bring them with me? I have no idea), through grad school (I guess I did?) and then our early life as a couple with 5 different moves (at least). That’s crazy right. I don’t remember packing them.

My son was going through my stuff in the basement at some point and found them, wrapped neatly in a silk scarf. He thought they were cool but wasn’t that interested and they sat, waiting on a side table.

And at some point I picked them up. I was reading a series of novels that featured a family of pyshics, so that was probably why. I wasnt serious. It was just something to fool around with.

But damn if they aren’t eerily accurate sometimes.

I started with simple 1 card draws, bc these were easier to interpret. There is no right or wrong here. I only read for myself so I do what feels correct and in the beginning it was a simple 1 card draw.

They predicted that July would be tumultuous. I pulled the Tower a day before Trump was shot, and two days before my mother in law had a massive heartache that would kill her. Then Biden decided not to run. It was a crazy couple of weeks. I hope I don’t see that card ever again.

At the end of August I asked them how to get out of the funk we had fallen into. It predicted travel and references the tower with the star which is an antidote to the tower or signifies that that time of upheaval is ending. I didn’t end up traveling bc I caught Covid a few days before we were suppose to leave, and the dog, the irascible dog, wouldn’t cooperate with our dog walker. But my spouse and kids went and it was good for them, gave them some closure and allowed them to spend time together and grow closer.

And now I ask the cards What’s going on? What do I need to know? How do I deal with losing my ability to walk over time? How’s this project I started going? How do I get unstuck on this song? What should I write about?

And mostly it’s eerie how insightful it is. Sometimes I am bit distracted and then the reading isn’t reliable. I can feel when this is the case although I don’t always acknowledge it.

And I suppose it is just that the cards represent archetypes and are open ended enough to allow any interpretation. Right? This is how this works.