(An excerpt from a slightly longer poem)

good lord.
i didn't know
as innocent as a lamb.
i didn't know until the explosion quaked through my body.
exploded through my nerve endings
out further through my blood vessels
out into the world.
an involuntary screaming where there had always before been stifled silence. suddenly uncontainable.
pounding my fist into the matress 
as it overtook me.
why did no one tell me?
i had to find out for myself.
that our love could create such paradise.
that in complete trust there is complete safety.
and completion. 
if only for a moment.
this thing god or evolution made to bind us together.
forever.

(There is a question in my head whether I should just go and publish the full poem, It gives a bit of context that is probably important, but it is already achingly personal so I have to think about it, and whether it needs more editing)