Janus’ two faced truth
Is both blessing and curse.

I would drown in this futility over and over
For the gift of my two boys.
For them I would do anything.
I would make the vow again and again.

What was the bargain you made?
And did you know the choice you were making?
Would you change it?
Knowing now that you can.

Did you know how high and how far it would take you when you let it out?
As it sang a song that captured the world and made it a prison.

I drowned that bird every night just to stop its singing.
Drowned it in the red river’s sweet stink.
A black winged sacrifice.
And it would be back in its cage every morning.
Waiting for me .
Still singing.

Eventually I stopped trying to drown it.

I knew exactly what I was doing when I put it in its cage.
Did you know what you were doing when you let it out?