It is only from a place with stability
That I can rise
And It took a long time to find this balance.

to feel safe enough 

Dive into the cool waters
And let the dirt get washed away.

The stability had to come first.

I was searching for it without knowing what I was searching for.
I called it another name.
Not knowing

I called it home.

I was drawn to it just the same.
It seemed like I was settling, but I wasn’t 
not really.
It just took along time to nurture before it bore its fruit.
We planted that tree when we moved in
And kept tending it
Watched it grow.
Never asked for its fruit
And one day in the garden
The blossom pollinated
Turned to fruit.
We watched it grow
And waited for the right time to pick it.
It took patience and little loves
To reap the reward of time.